Daily Prompt: If I Could Turn Back Time
If you could return to the past to relive a part of your life, either to experience the wonderful bits again, or to do something over, which part of you life would you return to? Why?
I try not to dwell on past mistakes or regrets. There is one decision in my life that I wish I could’ve had a do-over for. I regret buying into the “renting is a waste of money, you need to buy a house”. The main problem with this regret is that I firmly believe that everything up to now has led me to the place where I stand now.
So I vow, to give up that regret, as it gets me no where and I am in a much happier/healthier place in spite of that mistake.
So let’s relive a wonderful bit…
Stay positive has always been my motto, even when I’ve been gripped by cynicism and sarcasm. I’ve always tried to keep a forward thinking positive outlook. I have to. The present isn’t a bed of roses most of the time.
It’s harder to stay positive when things are moderately shitty, than when they are really shitty. Like when Mercy was dying in the hospital, I was permanently optimistic. I refused to get negative. I knew that my positive outlook and up attitude could be heard/felt by Mercy, even when she was completely unconscious and it was calling to her to get better. And she did get better.
But now it is hard to stay positive. Life is great in some respects, Mercy’s health is getting better. She is still in line to get the surgery to undo the ostomy. we like our apartment and are keeping it nice. Mercy has even started throwing pottery again after getting her new wheel last month. So what could be bad? Continue reading
I’ve said before that I am a great procrastinator, to which some may wrongly think that I am lazy. I have worked 2-3 jobs at the same time for the majority of my adult life. In fact, the times where I have only had one job, I always feel like something is missing.
My students asked me the other day how many jobs I have had in my life. I honestly couldn’t answer the question. I really can’t remember all of them. So now I’ll try to search my memory warehouse for the facts.
Starting with the present and working backwards (more or less): Continue reading
I wasn’t looking for a new job…one may have found me. I found out that a full-time position just came available in a company that has advancement capabilities and it is a job that I can really do well First, let me give you some history.
I was ALWAYS a good student. Some called me a teacher’s pet. I didn’t agree completely with that nickname, but it mostly fit. I was the student that no one was ever worried about, they knew that I would always succeed. Therefore, no one noticed that I had low reading comprehension and no one ever suggested careers that I might be good at or love. So anytime anyone asked me what I wanted to be, I made it up. How could I admit that I didn’t know? that I had no dreams? The only thing that I knew for sure was that I would be a mom. Continue reading